It's Tough Getting Older

Seems that nothing is black and white anymore
Shades of gray and I feel the weight over my shoulder
It's tough getting older
I always thought that I knew where I'd wanna go
But now I'm here and I find that I'm still getting colder
It's kinda tough getting older

- from Older by Colbie Caillat

It's tough getting older. I know as a young twenty-something, I shouldn't be saying this. I thought college was difficult at times - oh, delusional past self, how much I could teach you. 

What they say about the years going in a blur is true. I can hardly believe I've had a "big girl" job for three whole years now and am close to starting my fourth year. What they don't tell you is how things change and become so different (and at times, so, so difficult).

It makes me miss college some days.

You have all that big adult-stuff to worry about nowadays: healthcare co-pays, struggling to make a living and pay your bills with what seems like breadcrumbs, navigating the politics of your workplace, and so on and so forth.

Exhausted yet? It makes me tired just thinking about it. And then no pressure, but maybe people in your life are watching and waiting to see if you fail, or to critiquing everything you do now that you've entered that magical realm of the "real world."

And yet, once I get over all those "being an adult" struggles, I still like my life. Sure, there are things I wish I could change and things I am working on changing, but it's a good life.

Even when it's tough getting older.